i cut my hair. it’s shorter than i’d like (right past the nape of the neck) but i don’t care.
fuck what pleases people. i’m not trying to please anyone.
it’s what i do when i feel like i need to change, to be someone different. i think i will put red on the undersides. something different.
i’m [...]

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i realized that i needed to get this out of my system. i was told that i needed closure and, because it’s not being granted willingly, i’m going to have to create some.
creating my own reality to suit my needs? i’m used to it.
 anyway…
you’re lovely. you really are. but i’ve learned that you’re one of [...]

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i wrote this post once and then lost it to crappy internet service. i hate re-writing things. they’re never as great the second time.
i’ve had the worst fantasies lately. by “worst” i mean ones that are particularly interesting and exciting for me but that are deemed socially obscene and unthinkable.
i’m wide awake so i know [...]

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i’m okay. i’m always okay. i’ll always be okay. tommorrow will be better than today and it will be that way because i will have willed it so.
i’m looking up from here on out. no looking back. no looking down. you miss out on too much that way.
i have to laugh about it. my posts [...]

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i’m posting again because there’s nothing better to do. i want to stay home and think for once.
i don’t understand what there is to fear about me. i’m a little girl with huge aspirations.
we’re too much like each other, you know. this is why things are difficult. we’re too much of the same except you [...]

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i want to hide the last one because it makes me sound like i’m overindulgent and stupid but that’s not how it sounded while it was still in my mind. it’s not how it sounds. it’s…i can’t explain. i never can.
i should go to sleep but every time i have the chance, i choose to [...]

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i officially feel the most tired i have ever felt in my life, ever.
after five hours of uncomfortable sleep, i went to staten island for a wedding/wedding reception extravaganza (i stayed awake with the help of a shot of expresso, two coffees, and a red bull thankyouverymuch). bill gave me the complete works of e [...]

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regrets?
fuck no.

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sorry for the short post. sometimes i feel as though i have nothing to say and then i realize that that’s all i do. say things. i promise i’ll upload some photos soon, it’s just that every time i want to, i can’t find my camera.
i’ve been trying to use the secret lately (there’s no [...]

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let me apologize. i tend to overreact sometimes.
yesterday was nice.
that’s all.

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