so decent things don’t last forever.
i’m sorry for the fact that i spent so long trying to convince myself that i was more attached than i really was. it probably explains my previous confusion. i tried too hard to make myself feel a certain way because it was my obligatory duty (ignoring the fact that such matters, [...]
Archive for October, 2007
Posted in Blogroll, tagged change, flowers, new growth on October 28, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged happiness, importance, worth on October 21, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
i take it back.
i’m happy. i am.
because someone cares about me.
(like a record on loop spinning constantly end.less. revolutions)
and that’s always nice to have.
i miss him when we are apart and when together i dread the point at which he will leave and i will miss him
.again.
(i have to learn. to stop looking for more [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged decisions on October 19, 2007 | 2 Comments »
sometimes i’m not sure that i’ve made the right choices. i’m just. afraid that i’m trying . striving too hard to be recognized for having a certain status in this absurd teenage social order. that i’m trying so hard to amount to something in front of people that i’m sacrificing my own feelings. burying them to the [...]
