Small change:
I retracted my application to Penn State. I was almost done with it, but I realized that I didn’t want to spend money and apply to a school that I’m pretty sure I’m not going to attend. Instead, I added Eugene Lang College, (I keep thinking of the actor, Eugene Levy) which is a really small [...]

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I ordered books!
- The Atrocity Exhibition (J.G. Ballard)
- Don Quixote: A Novel (Kathy Acker)
+ Something else. It’s part of a present. 
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I really would like it if something pleasant happened. I don’t know what exactly, but I’m hoping for good things.
I don’t want to develop [...]

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More. Thoughts are stuck in my mind that must be let out. 
The following is a warning, a disclaimer:
I have studied the nature of life and found her to be fickle and untrustworthy. The only way to quiet her is to follow her every whim. To live, it seems, is to become one with subservience. 
When trapped [...]

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I have spent long hours accompanied by loneliness, the ever-present fog that drifts in through hidden cracks and overlooked openings. Lately, I’ve been living an incomplete life,  constantly covered in the byproducts of my own unhappiness. Constantly surrounded by air that is so damp and weighed down that it’s a wonder that I haven’t been asphyxiated in the [...]

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i found something i wrote last week. 
i was really messed up (to the point that reality was bending and shifting, creating constant waves and motions) and i decided to make fun of myself. at least, i think that’s where my thoughts were headed. 
this is a satire on my boring meaningless life. ooh I forgot. but [...]

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