I got accepted into Eugene Lang The New School for Liberal Arts. I’m pretty excited. I’m also going to stop typing out the school’s full name. It’s annoying.
Pros: + Here, I can do a double major program or a major/minor program. If I go there, I’ll major in psychology and media studies? Something like that. [...]
Archive for March, 2009
Posted in Blogroll on March 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Posted in Blogroll, tagged car, car rides, driving, feelings, life, meaning, night, play, purpose, questions, sky on March 29, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
We’re sitting in the car, driving around at night, the dark, all-encompassing, pitch-black sky surrounds us.
She says, “So what about you, Allie Mason? What’s the purpose in life?” This takes the question I’ve just asked her and turns it around, making me contemplate it, which I don’t like doing.
“Hmmm. What do I think is my purpose in [...]
Posted in Blogroll, tagged backyard, child, experience, gardens, home, houses, lie, outside, rocks, warm on March 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It’s very easy for me to detach myself emotionally, which is probably a huge flaw. However, when I do find someone I care for, I’m almost paralyzed.
Sometimes, when someone I really like looks me in the eyes, I get so nervous that I physically feel myself getting smaller.
I regress.
I am six years old.
This is the [...]
I made a boy cry once because I couldn’t find it in me to hurt silently. I don’t hurt often but when I do it leaves its mark. It’s a short lasting scream jarring and terrifying.
My new favorite sentence (simple and discreet):
I hope.
Posted in Blogroll, tagged acid from rain-clouds, avant-garde goes too far, cult classic apparently, films, inauguration of pleasure dome, shorts, sucks sober, take hits then proceed to watch, what?! on March 9, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Weirdest shit I’ve seen in a while. Kenneth Anger’s surrealist 30 min long short. No dialogue, but backed with classical and operatic music. Practically plotless. Filled with odd symbolism.
Inauguration of the Pleasure Dome
EDIT: Wikipedia (might be good for something after all)…
(Simplified) Relationship between existentialism, absurdism and nihilism
Atheistic existentialism
Theistic existentialism
Absurdism
Nihilism
1. There is such a thing as “meaning” or “value”
Yes
Yes
Yes
No
2. [...]
Posted in Blogroll, tagged days, drunk, guitar, late night trips, love, nights, party, people, rides home, spring, things, winter on March 8, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Thoughts come and go, rapidly jumping from one thing to the next. Sometimes thoughts enter as if stuck on repeat. A tape recorder plays its message and is then rewound, and played again.
We sit together on the porch outside. It is six, maybe seven, in the morning. Her face is barely visible. Together, we fail to understand why some [...]
Posted in Blogroll, tagged distortion, film, happening, movie, picture, random, reoccurring déjà vu, scenes, things, thoughts, window on March 2, 2009 | 1 Comment »
My views on dreams, as they have changed over time.
In the beginning: Dreams happen infrequently. They are nonsensical, like collages of random scenes, carelessly pieced together. They’re meaningless to me.
The second step: Dreams are seemingly random, but if deciphered, they reveal hidden notions I hold about myself, the people around me, my desires, my wants [...]
